Loss of a baby there are no words

[Rebecca Ellison]

In a previous post I asked everyone to pray for little Parker my best friend's baby who had CDH who made it just 8 hours. I did post there that he ended up passing away. As I sit here and try to make sense of how this happens I just felt like I needed to write something down.

From the day I found out there was something wrong with Julia's little one Parker I have been the listening ear. From great news that his lungs were growing to the sad news I heard today. My heart is broken for her. She tried for 3 years to get pregnant, and I can't makes sense of why God had to take him from her. I know there is a plan, but i am human and don't understand. When I left for work at 3 he was doing ok. Then I got the call that touched me deep inside. Maybe because I am a mother myself, and because I am pregnant again. IDK all I know is I don't understand which I know is ok. 

 

I have learned that it is ok to ask God why in these situations, and yes I am  right now. I also am reminded for the 2nd time in 3 months how precious my son is to me. There are no words to say to a grieving mother but just listening ear is what is needed most. I guess that will be my role now for her even though I don't see how I am going to be able to make it home to Illinois to be there with her as desperately as I want to be. I feel almost wrong going on with what we have to do this weekend. A fun weekend of our nieces bday party and Huston gets to play catch on the field and Grandma is coming home with us. I just wish I could get to Julia, but the funds are not there. Is it normal to feel this guilty over something I really not control?? I think so but a 9 hour drive one way in twice in two days is something I can not do either and I know this. UGh just want some sense to come of this. Please pray for everyone who is touched by this. In the previous post Pray for parker there is a link to her blog and more information on what was wrong with Parker.

 Thanks for listening

[Jennifer Thomas]

Praying for peace for you, and the parents of Parker.

[Dianne Rotenberry]

You are right - there simply are no words. I'm sure that knowing you are there for her, not just physically but emotionally, means alot. We will be praying for you and for Parker's family.